As I watch Landis grows each day, I question myself, "Am I being a good enough mummy for him?" I told my mum the other day... "What's the 'definition' of a good mummy? It would be much easier if there's a guide book for mummy!" And of cos, she flashed me the you-must-be-crazy look. LOL.

My mum is a role model to me. Is really hard to live up to her standard but irregardless, I'm still trying. She told me being a good mummy is to understand your child and give him what he needs NOT what he wants. Putting your children as your first priority and sacrificing ALL your personal leisure for them. Is more like getting your children evolve in your life. To many, these are easier said than done. BUT my mum does it ALL. Even till today, my parents are supposed to join their friends on a holiday to Hokkaido, Japan. But because of work and their timing is near to my delivery, they for go it. I'm thankful for their act of loves for us.

After thinking hard for days, I conclude that I may not give Landis the most lavished parties, the high-end clothing or even get him the most sophisticated toys. But I know that I've given him all my unconditional loves, hugs, kisses, protections & education. Even if one day, we may be able to lead a extravaganza life, I will NOT educate him in a way that power and money is everything. I would still want him to learn that life is MORE THAN managing a listed company, or going for high end parties and all the material & plastic images portrayed.

People may think I'm NUTS to not hope for luxurious life; for my sons. Seriously, when you think about it, that's where human lose all their moral values and conscious to. I don't want that for my sons. I just want them to learn and practice to be a righteous leader yet a good follower, be someone people will look up to because of his fairness and good personalities, and be able to do goods to our society. That will be good enough for me, and to then, I'll truly know that I've been a good mummy to them. :)

Vacation, vacation, vacation... :D

This morning, my hubby was asking me AGAIN; "Have you decided on where you wanna go after you deliver our second boy?"

He is planning on bringing me oversea to take a break from EVERYTHING... But then again, I'm not even sure if I can bear to part with my 2 boys. Anyways, he gave me 7 locations to choose from.

1. Japan
2. Korea
3. Maldives
4. New Zealand
5. Australia
6. Hawaii
7. Bintan - I told him, "You can go there yourself hor!" LOL... :D

Its really hard to make a choice. BUT!!! I asked him, if he will be providing a sum of shopping fees, I dun mind Japan. WAHAHAHA!

And he replied, "SEE HOW!". Oh well, I still have MONTHS to think about it. For my siblings & friends, you can leave a message in my Cbox on which country you think I should visit. Till then, I'll ask him to be patient and wait for my final answer. :D

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